I don’t wanna feel this…
- A.Ayers Publishing Co.
- Nov 2, 2023
- 2 min read
Updated: Nov 2, 2023
Many of us walk through life in a state of numbness. I was listening to a podcast, and the guest made me confront an uncomfortable truth I didn't want to acknowledge.
Ugghhhhh! Healing sucks!
Self Awareness sometimes stings!!
But you must FEEL WHAT YOU FEEL SO YOU CAN HEAL! (Not sure if that’s proper English)
but y’all get it!
He said he was 12 years old when he told himself not to feel anymore..Geesh!
So I asked myself that same question.
Ok Auntie Iyanla🤣…
“ I said Antwoinette how old were you when went numb”
I answered myself 😩”I was 7”. 🚬🚬🚬🚬🥃🥃
Instantly, I felt chills in my body and my tears started to well up!!
I had to catch myself before I went numb again.
Did you know we have the power to put our brains in a hypnotic state when we ignore our feelings and trade them in for something comfortable?
Why? Because who wants to be vulnerable and feel pain? Not I, said "Sam the Cat!"
During hypnosis, activity in a brain region that helps people switch between tasks quiets down. This same region seems to disconnect from another area responsible for self-reflection and daydreaming—which may be why hypnotized people aren't worried about who they are or what they're doing~Time magazine.
I’m trying to be cute😂! Not vulnerable!
Feeling the pain of my past makes me feel dirty sometimes.
However, when I feel it now I have the power to speak to that feeling and tell it “the truth of the matter is that sho nuff hurt, but I am healed by the blood of Christ Jesus who has interrupted my good life and has granted me great favor in exchange for everything I ever endured!
Now I have the power to speak life to my numbness for that little girl and I get to tell that 7 year old…
“GIRL YOU'RE HEALED,SAFE &SAVED BY GRACE!”!
How old were you when you went numb?
#girlfriends&grace
I was separated from my mom at the age of 1 my father was in jail my granny dad’s mom end up getting us. Growing up without a mother was very hard for me even though my granny was great. I believe I came numb at the age 7 or 8 I was dealing with not being enough and what’s wrong with me my mother don’t want me! That turn into being used trying to feel a gap and void that was only going to be fill with God’s love.
This is a breathe of fresh air I love this so much to pull out the uncomfortable to heal.
This was amazingly written, I would say that I was 10
I just was looking for acceptance
I wanted to be loved so bad but I was a loner because of my weird artistic abilities. I never was accepted by the norm. Religion tried to control me but as I continued to walk with Jesus Christ my savior I understood that I was his. My childhood trauma has taught me to love me and I am enough. The process of healing hurts. The truth hurts, recovering hurts. Walking again after falling hurts, loving again after divorce hurts, carrying a baby after miscarriage hurts trying again hurts but some how Gods Grace gives us peaceful strength to endure.